listen !

This sucks .. this really does ... why is the question i ask !
I dont know .. I dont even know how should i feel about it ... no senses .. no emotion ... just a lost path .. where thousands of roads cross each other at the same point .. and i am standing on the same point ... the sign boards give directions that make no sense .. where  have i to go .. or all these paths lead to not the place where i want to go ... i am as lost as a sheep in a jungle full of wolves ... there is no light at the end of the tunnel ... we are all doomed .. as doomed can be

When someone talks to me of love .. i mock their innocence ... there is no such thing as love .. there is only one emotion .. hatred ... dark and deep rooted hatred ... the lesser version of which ppl term as love .. we all bear each other .. so that we may live on ...

Look happy now ... feel happy now .. concentrate on the present .. forget what was ... forget what will be ... let go ... let go !

but may be i dont want to let go ... i want to hold onto the past and drag it with myself into the future .. may be i dont want things to change .. may be i never wanted to ...

in life.... u go on ... u will heal what has been damaged ... but all u need to have is patience .. believe in things will get better .. just belive it

as if beliefs change nething ... from my side u can believe in urself ... i just belief in what is real .. what stands out to be real for me .. not what i optimistically assume would become true one day ... I hate u ... coz i loved u ... die ! *bang* *bang* *bang*

silence ....................