Tuesday, January 31, 2006


Today; a day wasted,
When tomorrow becomes today,
Yet another day!

Monday, January 23, 2006

I am a chicken

I am a chicken ... I was afraid for no reason at all. No one in the interview bit me. :D

My day started at 5 and then at 6 coz i had slept again. I was thinking that the Fajr Prayers are at 5 45 so i will easily get a van arnd 630-ish. But the Fajr prayers are at 630. So i had nothing to do but to get up, get ready, pray and then leave and wait for the first Van to leave for Islamabad. To my bad luck, today was Monday, and all the Vans that arrived were full. Then out of nowhere came a taxi ... and it took me all the way to Islambad for the normal fare of a Van. From there i got hold of another taxi and reach the venue 15 mins before time .. howz that for quick ? :D
Then i was lost. I was sitting in the library while they looked at all the places for me. I was orginally the third person for the interview, but they took my interview at the 15th postion. Everything went well. :)
Now I am back and plan on sleeping.

And  a special thanks to you for being so caring and concerned. I hope u always remain like that. :)

Thinking of whats coming up ....

Tomorrow.. rather today .. i have this interview for a PhD scholarship in islamabad at COMSATS. I dont know why but i am pretty scared .. dont konw what they will ask .. dont konw what will happen .. but first thing is to reach there in time .. so i need to sleep ... will post later the detail .. plz pray for me.

Thursday, January 19, 2006

listen !

This sucks .. this really does ... why is the question i ask !
I dont know .. I dont even know how should i feel about it ... no senses .. no emotion ... just a lost path .. where thousands of roads cross each other at the same point .. and i am standing on the same point ... the sign boards give directions that make no sense .. where  have i to go .. or all these paths lead to not the place where i want to go ... i am as lost as a sheep in a jungle full of wolves ... there is no light at the end of the tunnel ... we are all doomed .. as doomed can be

When someone talks to me of love .. i mock their innocence ... there is no such thing as love .. there is only one emotion .. hatred ... dark and deep rooted hatred ... the lesser version of which ppl term as love .. we all bear each other .. so that we may live on ...

Look happy now ... feel happy now .. concentrate on the present .. forget what was ... forget what will be ... let go ... let go !

but may be i dont want to let go ... i want to hold onto the past and drag it with myself into the future .. may be i dont want things to change .. may be i never wanted to ...

in life.... u go on ... u will heal what has been damaged ... but all u need to have is patience .. believe in things will get better .. just belive it

as if beliefs change nething ... from my side u can believe in urself ... i just belief in what is real .. what stands out to be real for me .. not what i optimistically assume would become true one day ... I hate u ... coz i loved u ... die ! *bang* *bang* *bang*

silence ....................

Monday, January 16, 2006

Human life is worth shit?

The pictures show what happened after CIA carried out airstrikes in the Pak-Afghan border of Bajawar Agency. In hope of killing Al-Zawahiri, they ended up killing 18 innocent people including women and children ... can u guess how Washington reacted to this? here is a sample from Guardian Unlimited (Full story)
``We apologize, but I can't tell you that we wouldn't do the same thing again'' in going after Ayman al-Zawahri, said Sen. John McCain, R-Ariz.
The cost of Human life , from what my little mind can conclude, is dependant on where u live. Its the land that determines if u can die in an airstirke out of no fault of your own or survive after carrying out a school shooting.

Politics is not my thing .. but what depresses me is the loss of life of these innocent people. One day Washington will get hold off ( or as they say "kill") Al-Zawahiri ... but how many innocent lives will be sacrificed ... only time can tell. I hope someone remains alive on the face of the globe to see the only super power in the world at its peak.

Monday, January 02, 2006

The New year celebrations

My new year this time ... started in GIKI ... am stuck here for my FYP and Horizon work
On 31st December, we made a plan to go hiking ... but till the time everything was put to order .. it was very late .. night had already fallen .. so there was alil change of plans ... and we went to right bank instead .. after a tea and pakora session .. i floated the idea of celebrating the new year ... so we decided to get a fresh cake for the occasion ... but the place where we are ... its difficult to get one .. as there are no good bakeries here ... but we made a pineapple cake to order ... for which we had to wait for about an hour in Topi. This gave us time to wonder in the market place on the new year's eve ... but dont start thinking something alreadyy ... the whole place was closed like nething :D
At last we got the cake .. with which Zubair had done a lil mischief .. but still .. we walked back to GIKI.
The dinner consisted of chicken Karahi .. at cafe ... it was delicious ... followed by a DP [ the GIKI acronym for Doodh Patti] :D
then we went over to zubair's room and waited for the time to come ... just before the midnight .. we had again alil change of plans and we started the new year ahead of the whole nations ... but approx 25 mins ... cake and pepsi ... a wierd combination though
I stayed over at zubair's and watched a 1973 classic "The Sting" followed by "Bedazzled"... i like heather graham :D
then we watched the ever watchable Bleach till 8am and had our breakfast
so was the first night on the year
lets hope that this year is better that the one that has just passed
here is my checklist for this year

1- Complete my graduation
2- Go for MS .. if i get an admission and a scholarship
3- If not 2, Find a job
4. If not 3, Become a TA at GIKI .. but i dont like that as much
5- [Not Decided yet]

pray for me i get 1 and 2
Hmmm Chicken
[Invader Zim]

Zim: Gir, I have been captured !!!
Gir: Yaaaaaaaaaaaay !!!
Zim: No, Gir thats a bad thing !!
Gir: Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay !!
[Invader Zim]