Its been a long time ...

There is some mess up with the blog recently and I couldnt post for such a long time ... Later then .. this lab needs to be closed now :/
tada

Basant '06

Today was the [hopefully] last basant for us in GIKI. The event as always attrated alot of people. I as being the social freak that I am, was not as "happy" abuot it as i should have been. God i hate gatherings. I spent most of my time today in the damned FYP lab .. and that tooo alone. My compilers assignemnt is literally killing my brain. Well ... i will be posting about in my tech blog what i have learnt .. but that later.

Today was a day that start at arnd 12 noon.. a day when u dont want to get out of the bed coz u have nothing to look forward to ... but u have to get out of the bed coz what the hell .. u still have to do it. Today was a day like all other days .. something new dint happen. Gullo went back to england and i couldnt even say good bye :/ Damn .. I hate this place.

I will miss this place :S ... i will miss everyone everything ... more on that later as graduation comes closer. I currently have watto's Ipod and i am thinking about getting one for myself too ... well there are alot of things i need .. will add this one to the wishlist too

Meanwhile, outside GIKI ... protest continue. Men pitted against men .. only the uniforms make them shoot and kill. Civil war ??? nay .. its too early to say something like that. The protests represent the anger over cartoons, the anger over army rule, the anger over stupidity of Gen Pervaiz, the anger over well .. all the stuff that has been going wrong. We are not lambs that u may make us move into any direction .. all the anger had finally found an outlet .. lets see where it stops !
shocking images at this blog
http://voiceofarzoo.blogspot.com/2006/02/brave-army-beating-innocent-civilianz.html
sigh!

Clash of idealogy

In the current row of protests over the cartoons, a lot is happening in Pakistan, which earlier was just a silent witness. All this is happening at the ppl level and the governmnet is yet to take a stand.
In pesh, angry mob has stoned the st. Patrick's church, the girls school attached to it and the boys christian school the name of which i dont remember at the moment. At the same time, the national tv and other Dubai based channel are giving full coverage to the Valentine's Day. Aint we going a bit wrong? We are stoning the church coz someone of their religion committed a crime against ours. If that is the case then the West is justified in suspecting every Muslim to be a terrorist. Assuming that by some freak logic, this can be justified .. then the same freak logic wont be able to explain the zeal and fervour with which Pakistanis celebrated the Valentines Day.
We have to choose. The choice will matter how we look at things. We should either have our sympathies with the EAST or the WEST. There is no way in between.

damn cupid .. dont u have an arrow for me :/

Happy Valentine's Day ...
From me
To me.

Loads of love, mum ,dad , sis, lil-sis and vicky ... i love u all the most in this world. Love me back the same. I could use some at the moment.

Nan [Today]

Nan yo deera ajeeba rwaz waa ... [Today was a very awkward day]
I got up at arnd 10 cursing my alarm clock and myself for not being able to
get up for my compilers class ... but i made it just in time to reach the
sat mob one and i came to konw that the compliers class dint take place ...
then we had a quiz of sat mob. ..which went really .... newayz .. it will be
a zero to open my account with . then came the real stuff ... i went to the
FYP lab at arnd 230 and stayed there will 10 .. except for half an hour in
which i had my dinnch [ dinner + lunch]. This FYP thing is really going out
of hand.

Two good things happened today
1) Shah got to the secong round of interview at microsoft .. Congrats man ..
once again .. aakahir FYP parter kis ka hai >:D
2) Someone got a lil sense spoken into them, making my life a bit easy.

Today was infact a very stupid day like all the others.. I dont get whats
wrong with u .. why are u reading this :P go read a manga .. that will be
more interesting that this :D

There are two things in life, reason and result. Reason is for satifying
yourself, result is what matters to everyone else. I found my reason, have
u?

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Sometimes all my ambitions nullify .... sometimes ..... i just thank God its
not for a long time .
O Mighty one, guide us onto the straight path. We are but lost sheep who
dont konw our way. Help us, have pity on us.

There is a time

There is a time to let go .. i think its mine now

Today

Today; a day wasted,
When tomorrow becomes today,
Yet another day!

I am a chicken

I am a chicken ... I was afraid for no reason at all. No one in the interview bit me. :D

My day started at 5 and then at 6 coz i had slept again. I was thinking that the Fajr Prayers are at 5 45 so i will easily get a van arnd 630-ish. But the Fajr prayers are at 630. So i had nothing to do but to get up, get ready, pray and then leave and wait for the first Van to leave for Islamabad. To my bad luck, today was Monday, and all the Vans that arrived were full. Then out of nowhere came a taxi ... and it took me all the way to Islambad for the normal fare of a Van. From there i got hold of another taxi and reach the venue 15 mins before time .. howz that for quick ? :D
Then i was lost. I was sitting in the library while they looked at all the places for me. I was orginally the third person for the interview, but they took my interview at the 15th postion. Everything went well. :)
Now I am back and plan on sleeping.

And  a special thanks to you for being so caring and concerned. I hope u always remain like that. :)

Thinking of whats coming up ....

Tomorrow.. rather today .. i have this interview for a PhD scholarship in islamabad at COMSATS. I dont know why but i am pretty scared .. dont konw what they will ask .. dont konw what will happen .. but first thing is to reach there in time .. so i need to sleep ... will post later the detail .. plz pray for me.
Yasir.

listen !

This sucks .. this really does ... why is the question i ask !
I dont know .. I dont even know how should i feel about it ... no senses .. no emotion ... just a lost path .. where thousands of roads cross each other at the same point .. and i am standing on the same point ... the sign boards give directions that make no sense .. where  have i to go .. or all these paths lead to not the place where i want to go ... i am as lost as a sheep in a jungle full of wolves ... there is no light at the end of the tunnel ... we are all doomed .. as doomed can be

When someone talks to me of love .. i mock their innocence ... there is no such thing as love .. there is only one emotion .. hatred ... dark and deep rooted hatred ... the lesser version of which ppl term as love .. we all bear each other .. so that we may live on ...

Look happy now ... feel happy now .. concentrate on the present .. forget what was ... forget what will be ... let go ... let go !

but may be i dont want to let go ... i want to hold onto the past and drag it with myself into the future .. may be i dont want things to change .. may be i never wanted to ...

in life.... u go on ... u will heal what has been damaged ... but all u need to have is patience .. believe in things will get better .. just belive it

as if beliefs change nething ... from my side u can believe in urself ... i just belief in what is real .. what stands out to be real for me .. not what i optimistically assume would become true one day ... I hate u ... coz i loved u ... die ! *bang* *bang* *bang*

silence ....................

Human life is worth shit?

The pictures show what happened after CIA carried out airstrikes in the Pak-Afghan border of Bajawar Agency. In hope of killing Al-Zawahiri, they ended up killing 18 innocent people including women and children ... can u guess how Washington reacted to this? here is a sample from Guardian Unlimited (Full story)
``We apologize, but I can't tell you that we wouldn't do the same thing again'' in going after Ayman al-Zawahri, said Sen. John McCain, R-Ariz.
The cost of Human life , from what my little mind can conclude, is dependant on where u live. Its the land that determines if u can die in an airstirke out of no fault of your own or survive after carrying out a school shooting.

Politics is not my thing .. but what depresses me is the loss of life of these innocent people. One day Washington will get hold off ( or as they say "kill") Al-Zawahiri ... but how many innocent lives will be sacrificed ... only time can tell. I hope someone remains alive on the face of the globe to see the only super power in the world at its peak.

The New year celebrations

My new year this time ... started in GIKI ... am stuck here for my FYP and Horizon work
On 31st December, we made a plan to go hiking ... but till the time everything was put to order .. it was very late .. night had already fallen .. so there was alil change of plans ... and we went to right bank instead .. after a tea and pakora session .. i floated the idea of celebrating the new year ... so we decided to get a fresh cake for the occasion ... but the place where we are ... its difficult to get one .. as there are no good bakeries here ... but we made a pineapple cake to order ... for which we had to wait for about an hour in Topi. This gave us time to wonder in the market place on the new year's eve ... but dont start thinking something alreadyy ... the whole place was closed like nething :D
At last we got the cake .. with which Zubair had done a lil mischief .. but still .. we walked back to GIKI.
The dinner consisted of chicken Karahi .. at cafe ... it was delicious ... followed by a DP [ the GIKI acronym for Doodh Patti] :D
then we went over to zubair's room and waited for the time to come ... just before the midnight .. we had again alil change of plans and we started the new year ahead of the whole nations ... but approx 25 mins ... cake and pepsi ... a wierd combination though
I stayed over at zubair's and watched a 1973 classic "The Sting" followed by "Bedazzled"... i like heather graham :D
then we watched the ever watchable Bleach till 8am and had our breakfast
so was the first night on the year
lets hope that this year is better that the one that has just passed
here is my checklist for this year

1- Complete my graduation
2- Go for MS .. if i get an admission and a scholarship
3- If not 2, Find a job
4. If not 3, Become a TA at GIKI .. but i dont like that as much
5- [Not Decided yet]

pray for me i get 1 and 2
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Hmmm Chicken
[Invader Zim]

Zim: Gir, I have been captured !!!
Gir: Yaaaaaaaaaaaay !!!
Zim: No, Gir thats a bad thing !!
Gir: Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay !!
[Invader Zim]

The year ends ... yet another

2005 is about to end ... in less than an hour now ... details later

Its over

Its over at last .. today was DSP ..  dint go that well .. but still ... ITS OVER ...at least for some time and that is what makes me happy :D

4 down ... one up

blasted ANN .. and i hate it even more now :/
DSP left .. and i hope i am able to maintain my CGPA :/

The numerical analysis paper was a real tough one .. i will pray that everyone get through and noone graduation is delayed
IF u dint understand .. the above line is for u :P

Remeber there are two things ... reason and result .. its the result that counts

3 down 2 to go

down by 3 now ... OPerations MANangement, Computer Graphics and Communication Systems ...

Today was OPMan ... went bad :/
and next up we have ANN .. which is my worst course for the semester :/

All will be fine .. i keep telling myself .. one day .. all will be fine

1 down .. 4 to go

Communications Systems is over... they paper went okay .. but still ... i am not expecting nething outstanding .. expectations hurt u konw :)
now time to prepare for Computer GRaphics
damn !! i hate computer graphics :/

and it begins....

today at 8 is my communications systems final and that of Computer Graphics at 530 ... after this is over .. i will be 7/ 8th of an engineer and a lil less human

A lil decipher

37 32 001 501 001 23 011 111 611 23 911 79 011 611 23 611 111 23 89 101 23 611 401 501 511 23 911 97 121 64 23 37 23 79 901 23 511 111 411 411 121 64 23 66 711 611 23 501 32 99 79 011 611 23 611 23 611 101 801 801 23 711 23 611 401 501 511
white is black

-- Even if u find out... just dont write in the comment what has been written in it
-- If u cant .. u are dumb :/

A long day

Today was a long day .. a really long day .. the finals are coming and all the stuff accumulates in these end days
this is my today's todo list:

1330: Computer Graphics Quiz
1730: Communications Systems Quiz
1915: Computer Graphics Presentation
2100: Communications Systems Lab final

well at the moment, its about 2025 so i have to finish this post later .. have to study :/

2038: i just realized that ... i dont want to study .. but i will take the exam anyway

0047: I just came back to the room ... the final went okay .. will get something arnd average grade ... and to add to this long long day .. i had to help some junoirs in thier Data Structures Project .. that is where i am coming from :/
and then ppl say "yasir tum kitnay fairgh ho" :/

0113: wating for the stupid net so that i might be able to publish this post .. its currently in notepad :D
0209: still waiting :/
0212: finallly :D